topsy turvy

you love a differently-abled child twice as much. you hold on tighter when you know you have to let go. you run faster, when you know you've missed the bus. you walk taller, when you know you're the little person in the room. you give it one last shot when you know you've lost the game. the world feels sunnier, when you're headed into a storm. you speed up when you don't really want to go there. you eat apples, when your doctor's too handsome. you watch romantic movies when you're out of love. sometimes, you just do contradictory things to make yourself feel better, usually about something that you cant do anything about. when you're feeling helpless, and you know what you're expected to do, you just want to do things that go against that expectation. just to feel like you're still the one in control.